Grateful.

Grateful.

I am grateful because I am seeing my sister-in-law tonight and I really need some family time right now and she is here. Tender mercies.

I am grateful because my roommates, who are basically strangers, tell me I am strong and I will make it through today and hug me even though they might feel awkward but they can see I need it.

I am grateful for Broomhiggins, so grateful for her.

I am grateful for my family, each member of them. LJ, who skipped breakfast yesterday morning because he heard I was sad and felt very sad too, Joseph who if he were here would quote Brian Regan and I would probably pee my pants and he would just hug me. Squeaks, who can feel my pain from far away, but still be bubbly and gush about her new iphone 4 to me. Elyse, who calls her facebook boyfriend to take care of me because she can’t, because she moved and feels guilty that she can’t hold me herself, but I’m not mad because she is growing up and I am so proud of her. Rodney, because he thinks I’m a ‘catch’ and haven’t even ‘hit my prime’, and his lovely wife that I will see tonight.  Then my parents who think I am wonderful because I am a Utah resident.

I am grateful that I can walk around Provo at 11 o’clock at night and talk to my Father in Heaven and he can give me peace I didn’t think was possible.

I am most grateful for Christ, because he has allowed me to still cry, while taking so much of my burden and filling me with comfort in a way that I could never doubt him or who he is, or what he has done for me.

I am so blessed and sometimes I just need a little perspective and to tell myself “I CAN DO HARD THINGS”