Wednesday, December 7, 2011


1. I can alternate between listening to Take Care and Twilight Audiobook.

2. That I am actually getting some homework done.

3. I see L tonight. Miss him.

4. Stalking.

5. Momma Dial will be here till Saturday. Just knowing we are in the same state is reassuring.

6. Eternal families.

7. Get to see Elyse today. She is literally my better half.

8. From where I am sitting in the libe I can see and smile at Courtney while still remaining productive.


10.Daily Grief sessions.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Push me in the corner, I'll come out fighting

I know you see me
Like some wide eyed dreamer
That just rolled in off a dusty mid west bus
Yeah, on the outside I look fragile
But on the inside is something you can’t crush

Cause I'm country strong
Hard to break
Like the ground I grew up on
You may fool me
And I'll fall
But I won’t stay down long
Cause I’m country strong

I have weathered
Colder winters; Longer summers
Without a drop of rain
Push me in a corner
And I’ll come out fighting
I may lose but I ‘ll always keep my faith
Find More lyrics at

Cause I’m country strong
Hard to break
Like the ground I grew up on
You may fool me
And I’ll fall
But I won’t stay down long
Cause I’m country strong


Cause I’m country strong
Hard to break
Like the ground I grew up on
You may fool me
And I’ll fall
But I won’t stay down long
Cause I’m country strong
I’m country strong
Yeah, I’m country strong
I’m country strong
I’m country strong
I’m country strong

Friday, November 11, 2011

maybe i should be honest for once.

I miss my father, everyday of my life I try to fill the pit in my stomach with peppercinis and other spicy food, but this pit can never be filled.

The pit was smallest when I was seeing Garth Brooks.

If I can't make 3 pointers in a basketball game, I feel I am rendered useless.

I love Justin Bieber and I think if my father was around he would give me a heartfelt lecture and I would take down half of my posters..

I am subconsciously TERRIFIED of marriage, because I am looking for a man that is of the same Caliber of Rod Dial and they don't exist.

If I don't have children by 30, I will adopt. No matter what my marital status is.

I need to read my scriptures more. I need to not be so antsy in church.

I need to be a better friend. More of a friend like lpd.

I avoid problems.I NEVER answer an 512 or 801 phone numbers..

I constantly miss when emd and I lived together.

I have secrets I tell absolutely nobody.


I think rmj knew this about me, but I am the WORST at writing missionaries. Ask RBDII, Patrick, Bubby, BH the list goes on. If I was better at writing missionaries, I would probably be married by now. THAT is beside the point though..

I miss this little darling so much. And more importantly than that, I am so proud of her. She has been my bffe since I was 13 years old and I adore her more than life. She is stubborn, my father called her argumentative. She got lost a LOT when she first got her license. We were crafty together. We love Hillary Duff. We loved rainbows, we were boy crazy and super active in church activities. We grew up together, we grew apart and back together. And I know that no matter where my life takes me, she will always be a part of it.

Here's to you rachey and how much i love you.

grateful friday.

Ten things to be grateful for in no particular order:
1. Garth Brooks radio and just Garth in general
2. intramurals
3. trw
4. Christmas decorations
5. emd buying a car
6. my big brother
7. my drizzys
8. the plan of salvation
9. seven.eleven hot chocolate
10. my father

Monday, October 3, 2011

babygirl, tryna get a man, etc.

In the summer, elyse had some photos taken for her most recent beau. to profess her love or sumthinn. It was a gorgeous Sunday afternoon and cute Kristin Duke made me jump in for some pictures.

Elyse and I were obsessed with the fourth picture of me. We joked that we were gonna send it to every boy who I had EVER had a crush on and see what responses we got. Though I love elyse to death she NEVER gave me these photos so the ONLY way I can get them is to post them to my blog from her comp right now...

Summer in Texas was BLISS.

this was the professionals pose para mi

engagement status<3

we fly HIGH, no lie, you know this BALLLLLinnnn

this is the one to get me a beau

to say she is my best friend is an understatement. she is so much more

Sunday, September 4, 2011

to make you feel my love

this OCTOBER my life will officially be complete. I always said that once I saw a Garth Brooks show I could then die because my life is complete! I am SO grateful to my mother for my early Christmas and Birthday present because this wish is coming TRUEEEE. is LAS VEGAS on OCTOBER 23rd!!

I could NOT be more excited. SHOUT OUT to Momma Dial for making all my dreams come true.. Love her too pieces. miss my roomie

Thursday, April 28, 2011

blame it all on my roots

Saw this last night with the Walker Clan (minus>>KEVRAH!)

So amazing. so INSPIRING. I finished the movie thinking>>I NEED to own this. Already have the soundtrack. Life changing. Tim McGraw+Grizzly Adams Beard= PERFECTION. He is a great singer/songwriter/actor. Gwyneth Paltrow: WOW. She is gorgeous. Have the movie she is Au Natural and its so real and she is so pretty. The other half she is all dolled up and equally as pretty. She is a HOT-MESS the whole time, but she is real. Garrett Hedlund's deep voice is what I want to listen to each night before I drift to sleep. Leighton Meester's teeth are weird, but she played the part of Chiles well.

I want to meet a COWBOY. I want to live in a small town and round my cattle up in the summers and play in the creek with my kids.

MORE MORE MORE MOVIE TALK:: When I was in Texas 2 weekends ago, Emd, Broom, A million little girls and me went and saw Soul Surfer.

i LOVE this picture it is at the premiere of Soul Surfer it is the actual Bethanny Hamilton and then Annasophia Robb Who played her in the movie. They are actually good friends now!

I have such great respect for Bethanny Hamilton. I CANNOT wait till that movie comes out. I will buy it without an OUNCE of hesitation. The 2.5 weeks I spent in Hawaii almost 3 years ago, were amazing.

I am going to TEXAS today. I couldn't be more excited.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

all in the family

We have started taking on alternate identities as Walkers...
Kyria is Of COURSE >> Nora
Courtney loves Justin and is therefore >> Rebecca
Larsy is the cute blonde housewife also known as >> Kitty
Jeff is her perfect Politician(Bank Teller) husband >> Robert

Ashton needs to choose an identity STAT!

We will from here on out drink out of plastic wine glasses always.

Netflix: I both love and hate you.
Brothers and Sisters: I adore you. You changed my life.

squeaker bum bum.

This little munchkin is moving to Utah in the fall. And I could NOT be more excited. I don't even really want to get an apartment because I will be snuggling with her in her bed at LEAST 4 nights a week (:

nostalgia for thursday.

I miss MEXICO. I always miss Mexico. I miss the very first trip my family took there, when Rodney and Elyse both had "work or school" and so it was just my parents, the younger kids and me. (I was at the time still in high school and not 18, so they had control to take me out of the country) At the time it was a lot of Nikka and me complaining about missing America and getting food poisoning. But it was honestly the most fun trip ever. It was like my last SHA BANG with just my family that lived at home.

I miss being home in the summer. And getting money from mom to take the boys to Schlotzsky's and driving around listening to Lil Wayne per the children's request.

I miss Henri. I am on the verge of discontinuing my avid following of emd's blog because in every post I see exactly 2 things: she should write a book and at any point she could drop Sir Henri at the pound without thinking twice. But he is our family and we have lost enough family for now. He needs her.

I miss my wifey. There is a degree of missing that hurts, but you get used too. I get used to missing my dad and my family and Bronwen, because my mind is programmed to be away from them for the past 3 years, but with Ashton I see her everyday until I don't anymore and I wasn't prepared for that.

I miss Intramural Basketball. Good gosh playing with the Drizzy's, I had the time of my life.

I miss..
Summer 2008 (but DONT tell elyse)
Senior year
Living in MC
Ho Chi Men
Wake surfing
Early morning bball
The list goes on...
And at the top is always my Hero, my Pops, my everything (:

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Motivation breeds Rejuvenation.

Usually February is the month of blah. Utah winter has drawn on too long, Valentines comes and I am once again alone and it’s the month before my birthday so I really put my life in perspective and realize I gotta grow up. Last year to cure the February blues Elyse and I spent a weekend in St. George at the Hervey’s vacation home and it did the trick. We finished the entire third season of friends in one day and took at least 3 bubble baths each. It was pure bliss. And then near the end of the month my pops came into town and I received my patriarchal blessing.

As February 2011 as been fast approaching, I am realizing that 1)A weekend at the Hervey house is impossible… burned that bridge.. and 2) My dad coming into town for the most spiritual experience of my life with a little snowboarding on the side is even more impossible. So I am left to me and my own motivation to make this month not blah..

Its time to get going and get motivated.

HELLO FEBRUARY 2011, I welcome you with open arms..

Monday, January 10, 2011


currently on repeat on my iPhone: George Strait, Give it Away

currently on repeat in my car: Pink, Glitter in the Air

Between George Strait and Pink there is a song that covers every mood.

And for everything else there is Taylor Swift

Saturday, January 8, 2011

mislead music taste.

At work the other day, I was listening to music on my phone when I stumbled on a few songs by Steve Harley & Cockney Rebel. Wikipedia told me that Steve Harley & Cockney Rebel are a band from the early 80's. I was taken aback by how much I like them. When I got home to Itunes, I did a little research only to find out that the band I had was not infact Steve Harley & Cockney Rebel. It was this gal:

Kathleen Freewin

I had picked up her CD at a show of hers I went to at Velour a few months ago. She is local. She is amazing.

Dear Kathleen,

Can we be friends?



Eleven days ago i was here..

With these people.

Feeling every possible emotion.

And loving all of it!!

Friday, January 7, 2011

can you feeel the love.

i miss mi hermanas todos los dias.

Livin for THESE night.

New Years Ever 2010 goes on the list with 12 hours that never happened. Which really just means EPIC (i really don't like that word, but its the only word that does it justice.)

The fireworks over downtown ATX.

Foxface and me pre craziness

CHUCK BASS. need i say more.

Being young and reckless is a rarity for emd and kmd, but it felt so good.

miss, need, love

i miss this.

I loved those days, where everybody sat around laughing, crying, or talking about my dad. I never feel comfortable talking about him very much, but in those days I did.

i need him.

There is no more to say than he is my hero and I am his. And I want to see him and hold his hand.

I love them.

While on vacation, I NEVER get excited about coming back to Provo, never ever. But all christmas break I was actually EXCITED to come back and see this girls. They brighten my day and make me laugh and cry. I am way grateful for them.